as we roll along

I saw my psychiatrist today. He had heard that I was very upset yesterday and wanted the details. So I told him. And I told him what steps we are taking with the kids, both immediately at home and for counseling/treatment. I explained to him that we have been trying to get some help, find a residential care facility or an intensive program or something, but have been unsuccessful in our search. He says we need a case worker or social worker. Yes, but where? The social services dept. won't help us because we aren't abusing our kids. So what, am I supposed to abuse them in order to get any assistance? (I won't, but there are some tempting scenarios...) My doctor says "you need help with these children." Right. I just told you that.

But he gave me a prescription for some chill pills. Lorazepam, a benzodiazepine. According to the wikipedia entry, it has a relatively high addictive potential. I'm not sure how I'd know if I was addicted to it. Frankly, it kinda scares me. He wants me to take it today, but I have a paper due for economics and I've not finished all the reading. I have to study for my statistics final exam. Tomorrow is a regular class day, and he's going to use the time to answer any questions we have about any of the stuff we've covered. I don't know what questions I have because I haven't looked over it carefully enough to find specific areas of weakness. I need to do that TONIGHT! And I need to write a paper. And I got 4.5 hours of restless sleep last night. Light just told me to take a nap before I start studying, and I'm going to take her advice just as soon as I finish checking my email (I'm done, unless something else comes in within the next few minutes) and writing this brief blog entry. Anyway, I'm not going to take the Lorazepam until after I've done my studying.

Superman took Sproing to a new and different mental health care provider this morning. It was an initial interview thing, to see if he qualifies for thier services. He does! This is an all-in-one place that does group and individual counseling, and they have their own child psychiatrists who work exclusively with the center. The boy has his first official counseling appointment next week (if I remember what Superman said). Hopefully this will be the beginning of some useful stuff for him.

As for the girl, she has an appointment with a new therapist on Thursday. We shall see. We're trying a different approach for her, one that might help get her into a residential care facility sooner than if she was in the program Sproing will do.

I'm tired. There is more I want to say (isn't there always?) but right now I need a nap, then I'm gonna study. TTFN